as a recurring comment and conversation i have with diana countless amount of times, following words and feelings, similarity flies up and then i start to think deeper on the subject. these words that are spoken sound a little something like this.
a nonchalant thing is said on death and then...words are uttered in a complete opened thrill on her end.
...."wouldn't that be so great! you get to be with our Savior Jesus Christ forever and ever."
beautiful. if i do say so myself. and i agree in all of its entirety as thorough as a bubble is to the sand on the beach. however, i am a twenty three year old girl. i love what God has to offer me and show me here on earth. my mind starts thinking deeper. my life here on earth is not a forever home. thank goodness for that. but my home here is timeless. time is ticking. in my thoughts and heart i thoroughly feel that i have a purpose here to fulfill. God has put me in charge of certain things. not only that, but i am to live out a certain purpose. to bring glory and honor to His sweet name.
we both agree that we don't know when our time is and when it is our time, that's it. His plan is His plan only. amen & amen.
the more we talk--and the more i think--which can be dangerous at times--i am buried in feelings of intensity and somewhere in my inner being there is a scent of closure and and it all starts opening up.
"i [only] want Him to be proud of me."
this is my ultimate goal.
my ultimate feeling.
my ultimate purpose on this earth.
that is what i want my end result to be.
to hear these words will bring me to my knees in praise and my heart will open so wide that hopefully somehow some of it will drop and trickle down to earth into others.
well done, good and faithful servant. you have been faithful with a few things; I will put you in charge of many things. come and share your master's happiness. --------------{Matthew 25:23}
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