Right, Left; Up or Down..

I have been overly thinking my future these past few days. Forcibly the reason being as I do not work at the Law Office any longer. I am praying, harder and harder each day to hear God's direction for my life. Impatient I might add, but I clean my ears out every day in hopes to hear and realize what he has in store for me. I went to Chesapeake Woods on Monday and filled out the extremely long application; had my interview; and then left. I got a call on Tuesday for a second interview for today, Thursday at 1:00. I went over sample questions and typed all of my answers in Word. I thought long and hard of what could be asked of me in hopes that if this job isn't for me, at least I have tried.

Thinking of your future is an exasperating emotionally spent process. I wish it wasn't but because of the person I am this process is exhausting. I battle the do's and don'ts; the pro's and con's; the what if's and what not's. If this Chesapeake Woods Receptionist job does not fall in my favor, there is a reason for that. God has a plan for me and it's very hard to see that sometimes, but I know this to be true.

What would I do next? be a nanny. I have always wanted to go someplace else besides Maryland and nanny a wonderful family and share that wonderful and new experience that I have longed for for quite some time now. I found a uniquely fitted family in Texas. 3 girls. The oldest is 3 and a half; her name is Faith. And the two twins are 2 and a half; Hope and Hannah. They are a christian family with a live-in situation that would be wonderful for me. I honestly just don't know what my life's next step will be and I feel like I need to act fast if I want to save my apartment. My apartment is near and dear to me. It is my living space that sprouts my personality in every nook and crane; it is also my Independence. My apartment is me; and I share this with my three cats and it all feels like a wonderful and balanced home. I have been blessed to have such a gorgeous apartment for two years this coming July. And I have to keep reminding myself that if I am not able to keep this apartment, there is a reason. Something new and wonderful will come along for me, and it will not be the end of the world. It seems like that to me as I type this but I just have to tell myself, it's not.

God has a plan for me.

I wish I knew what it was, but that is the joy and frustration of being a human that got her life saved from the magnificent God above.

I ask you to please pray for me. Pray for God's direction for me and that I may listen with both ears and take his commands lovingly as he knows what is best for me. I thank you.

What is my next step this time?

I am unemployed.
I need a job.
A place to live.

any suggestions?

Where will my life go this time? I am excited to see what the Lord has planned for me.