december first-lings.

my december first observations of beauty.
i love the first of every month.
it's like a fresh new spray of life.
a new shot of a brand new quarter.
thanksgiving is not the only time that i observe thankfulness.
blessings and full abundance--i experience every day.
i am thankful for many things on a daily basis, which i am extremely grateful for.

today was karate day with palmer.
i always sit with two older ladies who are proud grandmothers and laugh at just about everything i say.
we talked about pregnancy--as this subject always seems to come up in the karate room.
lots of girls expecting, just given birth, the process is as natural and forthcoming in this small group i am in, tuesdays and thursdays.
i am thankful for my karate circle.
that's as far as it goes--sometimes i wish it would go further.
the two sweet ladies and i talked about my apartment, my moving.
my anecdotes about my bed, my disgustingly ugly brown kitchen floor and family.
we laughed a ton.
it was refreshing.
in the midst of one of my out bursts i instantly thought of God and how wonderfully he blesses me.
in these moments that i so desperately need--and want.
solid interaction.
a routine of conversations and laughter as a result is just the icing on my thankful cake.
i love it.
tanner & palmer's laughter.
their laughs are amazing.
all three of ours in simultaneous tone makes me warm and prominent in the here and now.
the music that is always so laced through my ears and all the way through my being.
water to drink.
i just love the stuff.
when i'm driving the boys home and i glance behind me to see tanner so intently watching me.
like he's studying my every move--but totally soaking up all he wants.
and looking warm in the process, as the sun highlights his sweet face.
makes me wonder.
when i was little i would stare--and study the people who were actively in my life.
i wanted to not only get a piece of them, but a whole.
i wanted to learn.
i wanted to start my memories early.
i did.
people are so important to me.
& i let them know they are important to me.
every move was precious to me.
but i then wondered what tanner was thinking when i glanced behind my evening lit shoulder.
i wondered how i would be remembered to these little boys in training.
probably--she loves listening and singing to music.
and loves to take pictures.
of everything.
and take videos.
and dance to tangled.
ah, if these are their growing memories, that would be okay with me.
i love the first of december.