my drive yesterday was one of the best drives from georgia to maryland i have ever had.
i woke up at three thirty a.m.
finished things around the house and headed out around four.
perfect.
my plan was coming true.
i got gas, the best cup of coffee (seriously) from pilot and a sliver square of packaged pound cake.
i enjoy the little things--as most of you know.
i think this is what i am known for.
this cup of coffee was amazing.
i pulled the dark roast lever and down it poured.
steam filling my face with happiness.
a touch of dark hazelnut blended within this mix and i finished with a lid.
such a great blend.
filled my car with gas and braved the darkness around me on highway twenty.
the earlier i leave, the absolute better.
i turned my ipod on shuffle and didn't touch it the whole way.
mentally i wanted to clean it out.
if a song came on that i couldn't stand, despised, etc. i would write it down quickly and delete it when i got to maryland.
i only made two mental notes over one hundred and sixty songs.
i figured more would come out of the nine thousand some songs i have--but that didn't happen.
outside, it was dark for a long time.
the sun never really came out until some time in north carolina.
the weather was constantly changing through the four states i drove through.
even through the rain, the darkness, and the length it was such a beautiful trip.
my songs were great.
i love that shuffle button.
then my favorite christmas song came on.
well---one of--maybe number two.
hands down my favorite christmas song/hymn is "o holy night."
but as i have gotten older, "little drummer boy" has seriously bumped up a few notches.
i never liked this song when i was little.
it annoyed me quite frankly but i have seriously come to love it.
it was my inspiration yesterday.
i listened to 'Josh Groban's, "little drummer boy" four times.
right after the other.
it's my favorite.
and it was amazing to notice the emotion it brings when that one note starts singing out of my speakers.
an instant emotion.
i blasted this song.
volume fifty.
then a thought floated in my mind.
i am growing.
i am aging.
i am getting older.
wiser.
smarter.
my priorities are selfless.
i am conforming to God in a way that He wants me to.
i am not conforming to this world but to His word and commandments.
my appreciation for God has immensely sky rocketed since my move here to georgia.
almost two years coming this april.
my walk with Him has been consistent and sweet.
He is always holding my hand but i take His hand in mine daily.
so much has changed for me.
so much of my thoughts have changed.
from a psychology loving--feelings and emotions scientific girl to a Christ obsessed-Book of truths and promises studying and reading-non-psychological and practicality girl------i.am.growing.
[insert scream of happiness here.]
this song came dancing into my heart.
and i instantly choked up.
tears started flowing.
i got this inner chill as if someone turned on my personal a/c.
an inner chill i am very familiar with.
an inner chill that i am thankful for.
{because God is telling me something.}
it's a symbol and a notification that i am in fact still working.
my emotions are in tune.
nothing is flat.
they are all real.
and they are God infused.
God lead.
God is in charge---he orchestrates it all.
my thought----"you can tell that you are getting older when you start instantly crying over a specific phrase, word, or musical note that isn't brought on by nostalgia."
but by praise and thanksgiving.
quickly followed by,
thank you God for You and for Your son.
thank you God for everything you do for me.
i want to honor You.
i want to play my drum for You.
what a pivotal moment that is happening.
that has happened.
that i want to constantly center as my offering for Him.
it was a life changing, noticeably endearing and loving moment as i was on 295 north.
i am studying this sweet little drummer boy.
i have a new love.
i have established a new tradition that i always remember-----years to come.
[shall i play for you. on my drum. i play my drum for Him. so to honor Him. i played my best for Him. then He smiled at me. me and my drum.
it's not about me. it's about Him.]
i woke up at three thirty a.m.
finished things around the house and headed out around four.
perfect.
my plan was coming true.
i got gas, the best cup of coffee (seriously) from pilot and a sliver square of packaged pound cake.
i enjoy the little things--as most of you know.
i think this is what i am known for.
this cup of coffee was amazing.
i pulled the dark roast lever and down it poured.
steam filling my face with happiness.
a touch of dark hazelnut blended within this mix and i finished with a lid.
such a great blend.
filled my car with gas and braved the darkness around me on highway twenty.
the earlier i leave, the absolute better.
i turned my ipod on shuffle and didn't touch it the whole way.
mentally i wanted to clean it out.
if a song came on that i couldn't stand, despised, etc. i would write it down quickly and delete it when i got to maryland.
i only made two mental notes over one hundred and sixty songs.
i figured more would come out of the nine thousand some songs i have--but that didn't happen.
outside, it was dark for a long time.
the sun never really came out until some time in north carolina.
the weather was constantly changing through the four states i drove through.
even through the rain, the darkness, and the length it was such a beautiful trip.
my songs were great.
i love that shuffle button.
then my favorite christmas song came on.
well---one of--maybe number two.
hands down my favorite christmas song/hymn is "o holy night."
but as i have gotten older, "little drummer boy" has seriously bumped up a few notches.
i never liked this song when i was little.
it annoyed me quite frankly but i have seriously come to love it.
it was my inspiration yesterday.
i listened to 'Josh Groban's, "little drummer boy" four times.
right after the other.
it's my favorite.
and it was amazing to notice the emotion it brings when that one note starts singing out of my speakers.
an instant emotion.
i blasted this song.
volume fifty.
then a thought floated in my mind.
i am growing.
i am aging.
i am getting older.
wiser.
smarter.
my priorities are selfless.
i am conforming to God in a way that He wants me to.
i am not conforming to this world but to His word and commandments.
my appreciation for God has immensely sky rocketed since my move here to georgia.
almost two years coming this april.
my walk with Him has been consistent and sweet.
He is always holding my hand but i take His hand in mine daily.
so much has changed for me.
so much of my thoughts have changed.
from a psychology loving--feelings and emotions scientific girl to a Christ obsessed-Book of truths and promises studying and reading-non-psychological and practicality girl------i.am.growing.
[insert scream of happiness here.]
this song came dancing into my heart.
and i instantly choked up.
tears started flowing.
i got this inner chill as if someone turned on my personal a/c.
an inner chill i am very familiar with.
an inner chill that i am thankful for.
{because God is telling me something.}
it's a symbol and a notification that i am in fact still working.
my emotions are in tune.
nothing is flat.
they are all real.
and they are God infused.
God lead.
God is in charge---he orchestrates it all.
my thought----"you can tell that you are getting older when you start instantly crying over a specific phrase, word, or musical note that isn't brought on by nostalgia."
but by praise and thanksgiving.
quickly followed by,
thank you God for You and for Your son.
thank you God for everything you do for me.
i want to honor You.
i want to play my drum for You.
what a pivotal moment that is happening.
that has happened.
that i want to constantly center as my offering for Him.
it was a life changing, noticeably endearing and loving moment as i was on 295 north.
i am studying this sweet little drummer boy.
i have a new love.
i have established a new tradition that i always remember-----years to come.
[shall i play for you. on my drum. i play my drum for Him. so to honor Him. i played my best for Him. then He smiled at me. me and my drum.
it's not about me. it's about Him.]
2 comments:
That is my all time favorite cover of the Little Drummer Boy! There must be some heavy dose of Holy Spirit in Josh Groban's version. I'm the same way. If it comes on when I am running....have to play it a few times. Hope your drive back goes as well.
i totally agree. i was looking for you yesterday at church. in walked your kids. in walked your husband. but no jamie. so happy about your walk though. i love it when God allows things like that to happen.
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